stupid guilt

i'm starting to feel a bit bad about leaving NRL. the group is really going to be up a creek when i'm gone. not that i am all that awesome, but there is really no expertise in my group right now except me. we hired one dude a month or two ago but he's not quite as good as i had hoped. i wish there was a way for me to help out, but i can't see them getting up to speed in any reasonable amount of time. i just have to keep reminding myself that it's not my fault. everyone else left too. i just happened to be last. i'm not looking forward to telling them i'm leaving. and to top it off, the branch just sent out an email and i am slated to support an exercise in hawaii for three weeks in july. i would have liked to go to hawaii.